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My mouth~ by Hardstyle4Life
My mouth~
"My mouth is a fire escape.
The words coming out
don’t care that they are naked.
There is something burning in there."
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Andrea Gibson, The Madness Vase
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If nature~ by Hardstyle4Life
If nature~
"If nature is your teacher, your soul will awaken."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, in Faust
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Whats the bravest thing by Hardstyle4Life
Whats the bravest thing
"What’s the bravest thing you ever did?
He spat in the road a bloody phlegm. “Getting up this morning,” he said."
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The Road, Cormac McCarthy
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come forth by Hardstyle4Life
come forth
Oh, come forth into the storm and rout 
And be my love in the rain.
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You are a child by Hardstyle4Life
You are a child
You are a child of the universe, no less then the trees and the stars; you have right to be here.
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    I no longer felt pain. I was soaring, an intrepid adventurer into life's' unknown. Don't fuck with me, my mind was shouting gleefully. I felt the smile on my face, reaching up and touched the corners of my lips softly. Slowly laying down on the old carpet, stretching my limbs out as the small amount of blood clotted on my arm. 
    I dont know how much time passed. Perhaps none. Perhaps hours. Finally I sat up, my craving for cancer overpowering my need to stay still. As i lit the smoke, I decided on starting to walk back to my own house. It was safe at this hour, nobody was awake, and wont be for a wile. 
    Interacting with people didnt need to be an option, so I mustered all my will and got to my feet. I struggled to untie the rubber tubing, tugged my sleeve down, capped the needle and stuffing it all back into my kit. My eyes were well adjusted to the darkness by now and the small light from the cherry helped as I slowly made my way back to my window to make my escape. 
    I managed to maneuver myself out the window, successfully not getting caught on any of the remaining glass shards that clung for dear life on the window seal and awkwardly put the wooden boards back in place. I pushed my burgundy hair out of my face and started on my venture to get home, the effect of the opiates starting to die down by now. Pulling the last drag from the butt, I inhaling deep and smiling at the familiar burn it gave me as the smoke slithered down into my lungs. 
    The street light's familiar buzz was the only sound that broke the comforting silence of the night, the mist had somehow grown thicker and I could hardly see down the street. I flicked my cigarette butt into the middle of the street and shoved my hands into my pockets as my brain began to wander.
I romanticize and dwell on all past events. So that I never fell the difference of the cold or warmth. Simple content impassiveness. Acting on mental impulse of what I think I should do, never sure. And it has destroyed me. I try and escape it but I am about to be lost from myself dwindling further from the light of others, finding small nostalgia in solitary. I think that before too long, I will only desire seclusion. Until Death decides that my flirting should be taken to the next level and I draw my last strained breath.
    Even if it kills me tonight, I will be ready to die. And thats one of the scariest feelings I have ever experienced in my life, is when you realize you aren't afraid to die. You dont look when you cross the road anymore. When you'd take pills, you take however many come out. You're not afraid when you hear those creepy, creaking noises in your house anymore, because you hope they'll get you. You seen out dangerous things because you want to die. You stop caring about yourself, totally and completely. Nothing about you matters anymore, and at some point you look at yourself and become scared of yourself. Because you're a Monster, one who only hurts itself. And thats scary
    As my train of thought derails, I noticed Im out front my house and walking up the driveway. I slip my hands out of my pockets and made sure my kit was safely back in its hidden compartment in my over sized jean jacket that rocked various patches I had collected over the years. I take a deep breath, flew the cheap wooden screen back, and quietly opened the front door.

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Hardstyle4Life
April Love
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"I believe in peace and love, so put your drinks to the sky, throw your hands up above! get your head out the gutter and be respectful"
I am 100% original, Im not living my life to find myself, I live my life to be myself. I know who i am and i love everything about being me. You can dis on me, but I'm happy with myself and any problem you have with me, im sorry but thats your problem not mine ;D
Peace, Love, Unity, Respect
PLUR!!!
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:iconjozura:
Jozura Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
you have a thought provoking signature
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Hardstyle4Life Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
Do you enjoy it?
I like things that are thought provoking. Too many things have dulled down though out the years that its sickening. 
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Jozura Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
in a way yes, the reason i commented was because i saw some wording that hinted at my unique spiritual beliefs and was curious
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Hardstyle4Life Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
and what was that? if you dont mind my asking. 
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Lonewolfninja89 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014
how was your b day?
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Hardstyle4Life Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014
It was good, hungout with friends and family. best one I had in a long time :)
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Lonewolfninja89 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014
Thats good :)
mine was last Saturday but it was a small one. I did see Captain America and Wrestlemania
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Hardstyle4Life Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014
Was it any good? ive been curious of it. I love Marvel but Im more of a DC fan, I cant wait for spiderman
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Sheego Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014  Student General Artist
It's a hardstyle's life :D.
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Artsouls143 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Professional Filmographer
many more happy returns of the day :cake::party:happy DA B-day :3 Happy birthday tarkie 1st Emoticon: Happy Birthday :beach: Sini Birthday Happy Birthday Sini Omg I gets present Happy Birthday Grin :ihavecaek: Happy Birthday Godliek :D Happy Birthday Fella Icon :D :piratejig: :happy birthday: Lily Wishing a Happy Birthday Me and My Birthday Cake America emote :omghai: Happy Birthday Birthday :la: Hide Birthday Emote popcorn-pops HBD_NTdevont Birthday Cake  :D Happy Birthday Sailor-Pikmin! Clack Cookie Tease Happy B-Day Caeser1993 LightningYayz for Kalvanas Buck-heart Remnants Carameldansen Happy Birthday IceXDragon! Happy Birthday, Capt'n Genesis Yayz Sini's Birthday Slave KimRaiFan's Bday Cake Happy Birthday Caeser1993 Buck-heart cloudmassiveblushplz Kao Emoji-16 (Happy Birthday) [V1] Forgot it's your birthday? Happy DeviantART Birthday Happy barfday, Marx, Part 1 Dance of Death for way2thedawn What's in seibears gift? :zikeshappyrun: V2 Kao Emoji-17 (Happy Birthday Alt) [V1] Misc Emoji-04 (Happy Birthday) [V1] :8Bparty: Happy Birthday, whitemajic happy birthday to moo genesisheybbyplz 2nd Present for Happy-gurl! -different shades- Happy Birthday Xak Owlie Smiley Happy barfday, Marx, Part 2 Cute Fairy - Clefairy Kid Happy Birthday Sweet Kirby What's in seibears gift? Happy Birthday Melmo :fellahug: Krissieee 2nd Birthday Gift for Sparklydest Danies Birthday Kidnapping :elyhugsniki: :kwertibounce: Scared Sherlock happy birthday Yumii--Chan avvie request Happy Birthday! - PaintThat Kyle's Birthday "STYLIZED" Happy Birthday Jaichizuru Happy Birthday Synfull Happy Birthday Sophia :shakeiron: Teeny Evie Happy Birthday - Anna! Happy Birthday Rei Your Raise Me Up Hope Oh Nom Nom Foxed Alex Birthday Present Smiley Happy Birthday :ashleyxbrooke: :shakeAlf: Happy Bday Alfie :D Sparklydest Birthday Gift Happy 10th Birthday DA Happy Birthday Sinister-Starfeesh Happy Birthday Emoticon  April love
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